Over the past 3 months

I've learnt a massive amount of lessons for the past three months. I've learnt about hardship, joy, and redemption. It was all thanks to one of my biggest faults in life, gambling. Though I've long known that gambling isn't my stuff to begin with, it is only this time I got hit severely. I lost not only my saving, but also that I'm in debts.

So, during these past months, I've learnt how to save money. I become so calculative that one penny counts. I kept thinking about how to survive with almost no money. It wasn't easy since I also had to fight the gambling desire. Gambling stole my life. But at the same time, I want to thank gambling for it. Without this, I wouldn't have learnt these lessons.

Now, I've quit gambling. I'm back on my track. When I got my allowance, I don't think about using the money to gamble anymore. Instead, I save it to pay off my debts. What's even better is, now I found myself 2 part-time jobs, potentially 3. I want to work my ass off to pay everything within two to three months.

What I've learnt can be described in one word, redemption. I want to redeem for what I've done. I want to repair myself. Once I'm done repairing, I'll be back to chasing my dreams, my goals, and my future. Then, the chapter of life where I gamble will then end. Thank you, casino. I love you.

Love,

Andreas